We have made it to another Sunday night. It was a cold day with the first snow of the season. Not a welcome sight. I’m tired and I’m getting irritable, which is a sign that it’s time for a TikTok break. This world is a hard one to deal with.
The idea right now is to cancel commercial, consumerist Christmas. I honestly think that is a great idea. This is supposed to be the season for giving. Not meaningless stuff that’s good because it’s expensive, but it really is a time for community and sharing. It’s not supposed to be about who can buy the nicest stuff. It’s supposed to be about spending time with the people you love and finding ways to show that love to them. For the people struggling, the help and volunteerism of this season can really show that there is still good in this world. I know for myself seeking to be a good thing in this world is one of the ways in which I find hope and also feel good about myself. Being a good thing in this world is one of my ultimate goals anyway.
Trying to rethink life outside of rabid consumerism and overcompensations for misery is hard. I know there are people in this world with entirely different experiences of life, both for better and worse. The point is that continuing to find new and better ways of being is about divorcing ourselves from the world that we have chosen to believe in. When you sit and think about how so many things are, it’s not even just that a lot of it doesn’t make sense. It is that so much of this stuff is truly harmful. My whole life I have heard people continuously say, “That’s just the way it is”, however I have come to know that we make things the way they are by participation. If we all stopped doing and believing in these things, they would stop. Humans are not nearly as helpless as many of us try to insist. If we question things, if we refuse to carry on traditions, if we no longer allow nonsense to prevail then we change the world. That’s the only way anybody ever has. Yet we continue to give in and survive for apparently no good reason because many of us don’t even think enough of ourselves to aspire to good lives. We just work hard for misery.
So this new week is going to be about me creating joy each day. I will be actively doing things that make me feel good and that I can enjoy. I have known for quite some time that joy is resistance, especially when it is going directly against the status quo. I do not have a lot by way of resources, so I will have to be creative, but that is what I do. I will be creating great moments for myself and turning the tide of endurance. I will seek joy in giving, in creating beauty, in allowing myself real, deep feelings, in sharing, and in finding reasons to rejoice in being. To many terrible people are enjoying life for me to continue to go on in anxiety and suffering. So tomorrow I will be back to describe how I have sought and captured joy. I hope you will seek some for yourself as well. Until tomorrow…
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