Recessed…

Hello, hello! People are finally realizing we’ve been in a recession, so that’s good. I’m glad everybody is catching up. 

This day took my wanderings all over the place. I don’t even know which ones to put here so I’m just going to put a few different meanderings below:

…The more you try to hide from yourself the further removed from reality you have to be. The more you try to convince yourself you are not the person who carried out your actions, the more 1 + circle = mflphlrp. Things can’t make sense in a world where you have to dissociate cause and effect so you don’t have to be responsible for your actions…

…They’re telling me I should be grateful to be free. I didn’t ask to be. I didn’t ask to be here. I’m just here, trying to figure out why, trying to live, and trying to be happy. Some people are asking for too much, but those are not the people simply asking to be alive…

…I never imagined I could be the good thing in my life. I always thought it was supposed to be other people. I’m afraid to go full out. People often would rather protect their darkness than embrace the light…

…I wanted to give people something better to see before I stepped into my light. I wanted to be prouder of myself. I wanted to want to be seen, but the light keeps swinging my way…

…I want a very specific man to touch me. I don’t know exactly who, but everywhere I look I see mostly men who I don’t want to touch me. And of those that I do, I usually don’t want them to talk to me. It feels like I either want them to touch me or talk to me. A lot of men are gross. They’re always overly freaked out, overly insecure, overly sensitive. Eeyuck!…

…When you’re needs weren’t met early on, you don’t associate love with getting your needs met, you associate love with disappointment…

…I am never having kids of my own, but I would rather feed all of the kids I can than to let them starve because their parents can’t or won’t…

Just some of the highlights. I spend most of my days writing now. It’s amazing. I’m so much happier. Now once I get this pesky currency situation in hand, I’ll be cooking with gas. In the mean time, hasta manana…