Why can’t I sleep at night, why do I feel this way inside and my heart feels like it’s so tight.
I can hardly breathe from all this pain, why do I feel like I’m going insane?
Nothing seems to be going in my favor, how can I wave off this feeling…I wish there was a way I could submit God a waiver.
What have I done to deserve all of this, let me think back in my past…maybe there’s something I miss.
Oh wait…I played with his heart, matter of fact it’s safe to say I broke it. He gave me his all and I didn’t even appreciate it, let alone deserve it.
I didn’t have to do any of the wrongful things I did…I could have just been honest, but instead I made unworthy promises.
He cried and poured his entire heart out to me, the day he found out the real true story.
The crazy thing about it all was he was willing to forget and forgive, but instead I choose to continue to do me and live how I choose to live.
I didn’t care about anyone else’s feelings at the time, the only person I cared about and feelings I worried about was only mine.
I was selfish and dumb, but now things are appearing to backfire on me and my heart feels numb.
I made a huge mistake that I can never take back, at times my heart hurts so bad, I feel like I’m having a heart attack.
Now the new guy I’m with is doing the exact same things that I use to do, he left me and I don’t know why, he didn’t leave any type of clue.
I don’t know what’s going on, this pain is something that can’t even be fixed by my own mama…wait I hear a knock and a voice in my head that’s saying, “it’s me, Karma!”
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